My daily routine of practice and study is carrying on, and with only three weeks left of summer school time really is flying. In the same way, Boudhanath really feels like home now. Home, not in the sense of somewhere I particularly feel I have to be to be comfortable, but home in the sense of familiarity.

Various incidents have also happened which have been useful in the sense of challenging my views on things such as the tulku system and other additions the Tibetans added to the Dharma package overall.

I guess I've been somewhat skeptical of the tulku system in general due to the history of abuse that has gone along with it for a long time. Combine that with hanging out with tulkus in a non student-teacher/cult leader/cultist set up and it gets murkier, or lighter.

If there are fake tulkus, lamas and ordained types a lot of it is our own fault. We are after all the people who facilitate the abuses of power and trust on both individual and institutional levels.

Most Tibetans effectively know fuck all about Buddhism and can sort of be forgiven for having blind trust in someone simply because they are born into a family where a picture of some guy is given prime position on the shrine and deified, much in the same way medieval Christians had little choice. However when it comes to Western, generally highly intelligent and well educated, Buddhist "converts" it's a bit less ok.

The thing that really marks Vajrayana out as a different branch of the Mahayana is really the Guru/Disciple relationship. This happens on all sorts of levels including samaya, view etc. But these are pretty much moot points unless the relationship has some degree of authenticity to it. An authentic relationship is not based on liking what someone says, the overall lineage package they come with, having warm and fuzzy feelings or anything as vague as feeling a "connection", to paraphrase Patrul Rinpoche, there are these idiots who come across as charismatic or whatever and win people over that way. Unfortunately there are lots of people willing to support them and feed the cycle of insanity. I'm repeating myself here.

Anyway, there are XBOXHUEG ammounts of classical texts about how to find, and more importantly, investigate a potential teacher. Use them, and don't go around referring to someone as your root Guru because they made you feel nice at some point in the last five years.

On an unrelated personal note, due to various, mostly local factors, I have had some samaya issues recently, but they are easily dealt with. However they have served as a timely reminder of how important being aware of ones environment really is.