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I study, and try to practice, Vajrayana Buddhism. My main areas of interest are Chod, Kagyu and Nyingma traditions as well as Buddhisms interactions with the West, pop-culture and engaged Buddhism.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Disappointment and failure




When we talk about suffering in samsara, it's generally divided into three aspects; The Suffering of Suffering, The Suffering of Impermanence and All Pervasive Suffering.

The Suffering of Suffering is stuff like putting your foot on a spike, or generally any physical or mental experience or sensation we label as painful.

The Suffering of Impermanence would include things like bereavements, loosing something you value, receiving a huge tax bill or other unexpected burden. It's basically loosing that which you label as nice, pleasant or a cause of happiness and meeting the opposite.

All Pervasive Suffering is something much more subtle. I believe this is really what the First Noble Truth is referring to. In the Tibetan tradition this suffering is described as being felt more intensely by realised beings than by the rest of us. The difference is said to be like that of feeling a hair in ones eye versus feeling it the palm of ones hand.

The difference between realised beings and us in this case is critical.

Why?

Because most of the time we have no idea how much we are actually suffering. When it comes to samsaric suffering, at least temporarily, ignorance is indeed bliss.

No matter how traumatic the break-up of our seemingly perfect relationship, the fear at being diagnosed with cancer, the sense of loss and confusion at finding out our only child was killed before we even met them or even the pain of the lower realms, none of these are fully the understanding that we are suffering. This isn't in any way meant to be-little the the suffering mentioned by the way, rather to illustrate that whatever the obvious or explicit suffering, it's merely symptomatic of something much bigger. In other words, it's just the tip of the samsaric iceberg.

If we look more closely at our suffering, ideally from a less emotionally involved point of view, we find that it is all rooted in a sense of wanting something, or hoping to get something, which brings with it the fear of not getting this "something".

This lack of contentment and constant, admittedly subtle, search or craving is rooted in dualistic clinging to our ego-self, which is nothing more than an idea. This idea is strong and powerful enough to create the experience of hell, however it's not solid and ultimately not "real".

As long as we have clinging to self, or actually ANY sense of dualistic conceptuality, there will be suffering that comes from grasping.

Intellectually understanding that there is no grasper and objects to be grasped is fine, but until we realise it through direct experience we will still continue to suffering. And whilst we are still unaware of how much we are suffering right now, not to mention the future suffering we are storing up through our actions, we will gladly continue to lick the delicious and seemingly endless honey from the razor blade, only stopping when we cut ourselves on it.

To directly experience, and consequently realise, the reality of suffering, we have to contemplate and meditate on it, not just listen to Dharma talks about it or believe in it because the person we've labelled our teacher says it's there. Listening comes first, but is followed by contemplating and meditating.

According to the general Mahayana, and consequently the Vajrayana, all beings are at all times Buddha. Not a single one of us has ever been seperate from enlightenment, however due to the ignorance of dualistic clinging, this reality seems very far away. We are like someone who thinks they can't leave their house because they've lost the key.


Essence of Dharmadhatu, Glorious Karmapa,
Bless me and others mired in the swamp of ego-fixation that we may come to know even the very fixation itself as nothing other than the Four Bodies.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

The kindness of strangers, and friends.

So it appears through the generosity, and kindness, of some good friends that I have the funding to stay another year. May all those practicing Dharma have as generous support as this. And may I become a good translator so that I'm actually able to put into practice something that benefits others.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

The rain of blessings of uncertainty.

So classes will be drawing to a class in a few months and it's by no means certain that I will get the funding needed to stay a second year, which I need in order to become fluent and thus a decent translator. Ordinarily this would be a source of anything ranging from annoyance to misery, however it's not. In this life NOTHING is certain, we have no idea whether we will live or die today and on a sublter level impermanence is a constant fact. Relaxing in this fact, and thus accepting it, is far better than being traumatised by it.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Mothers Day


It's mothers day, so I thought I'd post the beautiful prayer by the Lord Protector of beings, the third Gyalwa Karmapa, Rangjung Dorje. May all be auspicious!

REPAYING THE KINDNESS OF MY MOTHER

by the Third Karmapa Rangjung Dorje

OM MANI PADME HUM
I prostrate to the Noble Master Chenrezig!

OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH*

There is nothing to be said more profound than this:

Dear mother, you protected me lovingly when I was small
You taught me with love and told me sweet words
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

You fed me from your mouth and wiped my feces away with your hand
You picked me up on your lap again and again -
My kind mother wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

The end of birth is surely death
Even powerful humans don't have the slightest power to remain [forever]
When departing alone, [only] the sacred dharma will [be of] benefit -
[My kind mothers] wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

The end of collecting is surely loss
Even the greediest person will be unable to take anything along
When departing alone, only the sacred dharma will [be of] benefit -
[My kind mothers] wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Mother, when you are going to depart alone from here
I pray that you, I, and Chenrezig will meet!
My kind mother wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

I pay homage to lama and protector Manjushri!
Wherever in the three realms the six kinds of beings are born,
their birth is of four kinds:
Except for miraculous birth, a body is formed in dependence on
a father and a mother.
Due to karmic forces, you conceived and carried me for nine months
and ten days -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When the life force impelled my embryo to come out
You suffered the bone-wracking pain of contractions -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I was born your body became covered with blood, lymph, pus,
and milk -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When my skin and bones were feeble and not fully formed
You picked me up with gentle hands -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I had pus in my eyes or other organs
You licked it off with your soft tongue -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Even when my specks of feces came into your mouth
You were not disgusted -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

You always held me tight, like in the gentle warmth of your belly -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When sleep rendered us unconscious at night
I would interrupt your sleep many times -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

You took me on your lap and cuddled me -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

You cheered me up and made me so happy -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Whenever I was wriggling and crying, you tirelessly gave me your
breast to suck -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When my eyes were tightly closed by sleep
You swiftly protected me from heat and cold -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I crawled on all fours like an animal
You taught me how to walk on my feet -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I was three years old
You kept an eye on me wherever I went -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I was five years old
You showed me how to dress myself properly -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

When I was ten years old
You taught me how to understand and decide things -
My kind mothers wandering in the three samsaric realms, oh no!
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Your mind was one-pointedly focused [on my welfare] -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

[Throughout,] you were always calm and fair -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

You gave your permission when it was time for me to leave -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

[Because of your love] I became independent after I had left you -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

If sudden disasters were to carry you off -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

And you would end up in some unknown place -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

May our minds become ultimately inseparable -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Dear mother, do not be angry when I say this:
My thoughts go to you again and again
And your kind acts make me weep -
My kind mothers wandering in the three pitiful samsaric realms
May I guide you on Chenrezig's path. OM MANI PADME HUM HRIH

Mother, when it is time for your mind to leave this body
May you be born in a supremely blissful state and
Having been born there, may you attain the heart of enlightenment
Having attained that, may you act for the benefit of all beings

Words of vast and deep meaning break my heart.
Vajradhara in the pure realm of Akanishta,
And Pema Jungne in Ngayab Ling,
Please let the ability to repay the kindness of my mothers
Awaken in me, Palden Karmapa of the Snowy Regions.